Christmas

Healing for the Holidays

Another holiday passes by without my mom and Wayne, and it's left me with some thoughts about loss...


To those who have lost loved ones or parents like I have. I would love to tell you it gets easier. That life moves fast, and you before long you'll eventually become numb. I'd love to tell you that if you surround yourself with family and friends that you won't even notice the missing links after time. But I'd be lying.

Holidays seem to move in slow motion. It's a cruel joke that the universe likes to play on us. Time seems to stop just long enough to hurt us in ways we could never imagine.

See, Death has no emotional attachments. Death has no family or friends of his own. The grim reaper is merely a debt collector. Taking names on his list and shattering surrounding lives into tiny broken pieces. Death never turns back to check the wreckage he caused because Death himself is empty, tired and alone.

So as I spend the rest of my life picking up piece after piece of a puzzle that I'll never be able to put back together, Death laughs to himself, as he watches over me. Watching and waiting... Waiting and watching... waiting patiently to take me. Ever so slightly grazing past my shoulder or whispering in my ear. Taunting me. Taunting all of us, as we gaze longingly at photographs and ugly cry in our cars. Death enjoys watching us suffer. He gets off on it.

Well, fuck that.

I will no longer indulge in such suffrage. I will no longer give him the pleasure of grinning over shattered puzzle pieces. I will celebrate him instead. I will cherish the time I had with my mother and think of her memory only in harmonious ways. I will no longer be a slave to death and his list of names. I will no longer hold a grudge towards Death, because the truth is... that's exactly what he wants. He wants us to be angry. He feeds off it. The irony is, death feels so much more alive when he's held accountable for his actions. He loves the attention. He wants to remain constant in our minds because without it, without your anger and fear he is powerless. I no longer fear death. When he comes for me, I will greet him like an old friend... Because he is only one that will lead me back to my family's embrace.

I don't have religion or faith of any kind really. All I have is the knowledge that, one day death will come for me, like he has come for so many before me. And He's the only one that knows the way home.


I know the holidays hurt a little more than regular days, but don't give in the pleasures of sulking. Instead, smile big when you think of the ones that have passed before you. Laugh loudly as if they are still right beside you in those moments. Because pieces of them still are. Carry those pieces with you, and live a life that would make them proud.

 

Happy Holidays,
M

WATCH BETHLEHEM HERE!

Before we get started, I want to say THANK YOU for all the love and support we have received on our little film. All the reviews have been fantastic, and the response at the film festivals have been pretty incredible so far. I am insanely proud of the cast/crew I was lucky enough to work with. I think we really captured something special. Bethlehem is a nod towards those 90's Holiday classics only with some balls. Pardon my french. I think Sam Watermeier from NUVO Magazine described the film the best saying; "IT’S RUDE AND CRUDE BUT ALSO BATHED IN A WARM LIGHT, AS IF FILMED THROUGH A HAZE OF NOSTALGIA." It is very crude, so put the kids to bed - Bethlehem is a Christmas story for ADULTS ONLY. (Due to Strong Language)

It's a beautiful little film that a lot of people worked really hard on and I want to share it with you...However like I just mentioned, A TON of hard work went into making this film and YES you can watch it on your phone or iPad or computer BUT I beg you, PLEASE stream it to your television via VIMEO app. The film is colored and has audio enhancing for your television not your devices. To truly get the best feel for the film, PLEASE stream it to your TV. You can do so by using Chromecast, Apple TV, Xbox, Ruku (see more). 

Last but not least, the film will only be available to stream on December 24th and 25th. That's right, Christmas Eve and Christmas night ONLY folks. You can pre-order it now and watch it with friends and family after they get good and drunk after Christmas dinner!

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"BETHLEHEM REMINDS US THAT BEHIND EVERY HOUSE DECKED-OUT WITH CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS IS A STORY OF A FAMILY STRUGGLING TO KEEP IT TOGETHER IN A WORLD MORE CONDUCIVE TO ITS FALLING APART."

 - Michael S. DeBurger - 

“BETHLEHEM” IS A ROWDY ADULT COMEDY ABOUT TRYING TO DEAL WITH THE PEOPLE WHO KNOW JUST HOW VULNERABLE WE REALLY ARE INSIDE. IT’S FUNNY, MOVING AND ABOVE ALL, FIENDISHLY ENTERTAINING."

- Philip Smolen -

"MALONE CLEARLY UNDERSTANDS THAT SOMETIMES HUMOR IS FOUND IN THE SILENCE AND IN WHAT'S NOT SAID AS MUCH AS WHAT IS SAID."

- Richard Propes -

"IT IS SMART AND QUICK, BUT YET NEVER GOING INTO A JUVENILE DUMBNESS. THIS FILM JUST FEELS FRESH AND UNIQUE."

- James DePaolo -